Sheasha geza was the first song that came to mind at that point in time. find it on you tube if it has not been taken down yet. but anywho the words that resonate with me at the moment are not even close to the words that are expressed in that song.
A new conflicting fealing has arose in me. The simple idea that I am not the only person who might and is going through exactly and at times even worse that what I might be going through at the moment.
fuck the usual literal structure of how things need to be writen and presented to the world because that happens to be the boarded gate of where all things tend to come to an endlike the very introduction to this one show called “Euphoria” where it seems to show the glorifed use of drugs but to clearly show how some of how all of these celebrated drugs are used as a method of coping with yourself and the people around you.
so I have been off my specific meds that I have been (supposed to have been) using but I have never enjoyed taking from my youth days. maybe one needs to rubb shoulders with death a few times befoer one gets itbut you end up not giving a bleep about what happens next.
Just Hold On About The Music and The Earphones!!.
coming from a 2 day drinking bender just before a 3 day full lunar effect of not being able to get a wink of sleep in the process I have been starting to hallucinate or rather envision myself hearing things I should not be hearing from songs that I feel like I am well versed with but there are nuances within some of these songs that one happens to resonate with. It is very creepy at first then somehow my body starts to resonate with to the point that it may as well be the only song I listen to until I feel like fully committing to rubbing my shoulders with death it’s self, BUT.
the full idea and thought of, can be full filling until I have my earphones on and I try to assimilate with the pain of what that artist might be going through. it has alway inrested me in how an artist may be able to fill up a whole stage *stolen*(Casper Nyovest) but still drop such harmful hints ti the poeple who may have been by the side of thst artist but had missed the minor imprints left by this one person in pain who is able to make a whole movemnt of people move in rythimic succesion to thier jams **EXAMPLES WERE MADE. NOT AN ATTACT TO ANYBODY!!** AT ALL!!
JUST ONE RANDOM HOLISTIC VIEW OF WORDS IF HOW INFLUENTIAL THEY CAN BE.
MORE RANDOM THOUGHTS LATTER
within my brain 