To say that it was a cluster of fucks would be putting it mildly!
For almost a week I have been feeling under the weather while trying to run a business that demands my full strength and mental awareness and this has been one of the few challenging things of my life. No mater how hard I tried I just felt capped with what I could physically do, which felt like 30% of my capacity.
Nonetheless I soldiered on untill I remembered that, “this wasn’t why I started a business in the first place”, killing myself to help people was not why I signed up. So I got someone to help me out for the day. Technically I just wanted to see the person and vett them to evaluate if they would be someone I would be able to work with.
WHAT A SHIT SHOW IT TURNED OUT TO BE!
It cost me so much money to have this person around. The amazing thing that it managed to revealed to me is how terrible my communication skills are. It has me reevaluating every aspect in my life, to try check on how bad my communication was and how it may have possibly destroyed my past relationships (possibly all of them). Crazy!
Anyway, I felt pissy the whole day. That I had just spent all this money to get help from someone and it just wasn’t helpfull AT ALL. I had the immediate knee jerk reaction that, “I don’t think that getting help is the direction I would like to take for my company.”
Eventually I calmed down and started to reevaluate the concept of having someone to help me as having a good divident paying stock. Where getting in on the trade at a shitty price will first have the stock price plummet, then it brakes even, then it’s value will start rising and will eventually only start paying dividents after 6 months to a year. So maybe looking at this as my first share of this divident paying stock that I have the opportunity to shape into whatever I would like to see become in the future.
It then also dawned on me the high potential of freeing up my time to do other things while, keeping the consistency and the mind share of possible customers. Let alone how much more the potential would be if there is a bigger capital investment made. I am also aware of the deep possibility of being screwed over so I would need to keep in mind risk management at all times.
I definitely want to get to play with this idea a lot more which is also very dependent on the direction that the people around me want to take this business. Questions like, “am I providing a service for them that is helpful?” arise
I definitely am on to something or just clean out crazy. I would also love to hear your thoughts on how far off the rails I may have gone or towards a useful idea. Share with me you thoughts and idears by leaving a comment.
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